She sat in the shadows, with sheer despondency

Today was fine, I guess.

Had biology test today. Hope I'll ace it because I studied 'till like, 2 a.m yesterday?! Heh, it was kind of oh-kay to me :DD

During th whole assembly, Doreen made me super stressed up over SYF -.- I hope drama can bring back to the school something! ( Definitely not the certificates of participation ONLY )

SS was boring. Almost dozed off 3 times, but I kept on looking at my _____ ( Not a person -.-, try harder ) & I totally had th energy after that. (:

Recess was ... horrible. I think Doreen knows why. I was like staring into space and was damn quiet. ( Hey, how many times can you actually see me being quiet?! )

Math, started on a new chapter in E math. The chapter's suppose to be easy but I just can't catch up 'cause I kept on gazing into space. :/

Chinese. Laughed like crazy with Doreen. Laughing keeps my mind off stuffs, which is good :D & I was like writing an emo letter -.- wth?! Basically we just wasted two periods like that, I guess nobody was even listening -.-

Had lunch with Doreen afterschool and went with her & Laimin to bubbletea. Doreen went with me to th library to return my books and I've reserved " Revenge of the wannabes! " by Lisi Harrison :D Cost me $1.55, totally worth it.

Then I went with her to bubble tea after that and chatted for a while, then she went for her choir and I went home (:

Saw Sunxin, LeeChien, Cherie & Jin Hui in J8. Lmaoo, Sunxin tried to steal my phone :o heh and I found out that she reads my blog! Another stalker that never tags eh -.- ( Heh sunxin, this is a HUGE hint for you to tag :D )

Speaking of which, people, please tag (: You have no idea how fun replying tags are. Heh.

I'm off to get some rest, my feelings are all mixed up & I'm tired, physcially and mentally ( I know, very cliche -.- )

xoxo;

Like poles repel. Maybe thats how our characters are.

I am really confused now and I'm wondering if you want me to let go.

This will be the last time I shed these tears.

For the first time, something that costs a few hundered bucks can actually make me feel worthless. ( Jiayi, I think you understand what I mean here )

I am in despair.

When you walk my path, I hope it gives you hell

I've got my Samsung Pixon!

I got it yesterday (: The only complain I have is that the battery life is EXTREMELY short. I have to charge it and charge it.

& texting in class is a chore man! I kept on sending people blank smses :P

Butbutbut, the camera's awesome, & some of the applications are really cool. :D

& people, my unlimited sms hasn't started yet, because of some problems in paperworks. I'll be going down to th service centre with papa this week, fingers crossed!

Today was ...

Idk :/

We got a new timetable, and they removed all the free periods -.-

Rest of the day was darn boring. Biology test tomorrow! * screams *

& I'm feeling super messed up now.

But maybe I'm just getting mixed signals.

Maybe.

EDITED :

I'm being won over by a piece of pink high-tech plastic.

xoxo;

Earth Hour

Heh, second post for today.

It was Earth hour just now. From 8:30 p.m to 9:30 p.m

I switched off all the lights in my house. But I looked out of my window and surprisingly, many lights were still switched on.


I just shouted ! @ #$ [ censored for your good ] and smiled. Well, at least I did my part. One house can make a huge difference :)


I can only say Earth Hour is the best thing people came up with. Singaporeans are way too bloody selfish. Do you know that in other countries, when they had Earth Hour, you can pratically see the whole country black out from a video captured by the satellite.


Anyway, I attempted at barbeque-ing a marshmallow, and failed. The whole marshmallow caught fire for no reason -.- I was like " OHMYGOD " :o


Okay, I don't know whats the point of this post -.- I just heart the Earth.


Tomorrow is still coming really slowly. Gosh!


People, do not text me these few days please. My sms is like bao few hundred alr, bill gonna be like $80 plus?! Call me if you want. Thanks. :D


BUT, once I get unlimited sms on Monday, you guys will be dead from my spamming. Heh. ( Sorry for the non-stop talk on unlimited sms, but I've waited very long for it )

xoxo

:) <3

Make you mine

I'm supposed to get my Samsung Pixon today.

Then some stuff happened, so I'll be getting it tomorrow instead. ! @ # $

& The starhub people told me that my unlimited sms will only start after a few working days. & it turns out that Saturday and Sunday are not considered working days. I was like complaining : " You all very lazy leh! -.- "


I went down to the Starhub shop today with my papa. & There was this teenage guy who was almost finishing poly serving us. He was damn funny man, my papa and him were like discussing about whether to send me to poly or JC?! -.-

He studies aerospace or some course on aeroplanes. Cool eh? All I know about aeroplanes is that they can fly?! -.-


& All the black samsung pixons were out of stock, so I reserved my Pink Samsung Pixon. Its the last set in the stall and they reserved it for me. Heh :D


My papa is soooo nice. I seriously can't believe that he's getting me a phone that costs $400 ++. Because last time my phones always cost below $200.


& I found out from my mummy that he always scrimps and save because he knows that I want to study in other countries in the future. Very sweet right? He only buys clothes like once in one year?! I love you papa :)


I spent the whole afternoon naping. & I've finished reading ' Best Friends For Never '. My Twilight book is sitting alone in the bookshelf. Awww.


I'm reading Baby Blues now. & I'm having second thoughts on having children in the future. -.-


Okay, I'm off to rot and time seems to past so slow. Why can't tomorrow come faster?!!!!


xoxo;

All I wanna do is stand close to you, and be your support.
Must things end up like this everytime? ):
I'm not a piece of playdough that can take any amount of force you exert, I'm a human, a girl. I have emotions, I get hurt.
Sometimes I just wish that you can understand that I am trying my best to be there for you when you have troubles.

I AM really trying and giving in my best.

Addicted to you

I'm tired, freaking tired.

Slept at like what, 2 a.m yesterday because I was so absorbed with my ' Best Friends For Never ' book. Gahh, its getting bitchier each book >:o

& Guess what. Today morning after I left my house in the morning, I texted my mum " Byebye :) " and she texted me back " Byebye " too. Heh, she is the best woman on Earth man<3

Had E Math test today. I had so much confidence, thinking that I'll ace the test because I've studied for it. In the end, I think I flunked it. Oh gosh.

& Amaths was hella confusing ): SOS.

Biology. Mrs C. was surprisingly, in a good mood. She apologised to us because she made us wait at the lab for like, 10 mins. Heh.

& She showed us this gross video of the human stomach. Its like a balloon. Then me and Linda was like, " Eating also so scary! "

Social studies sucked like hell man.

CKN was like in a super bad mood, and then she scolded us and made us late for chapel. Arse.

& During chapel, there was this youth group or something that came. And they kept on playing lame games -.- The sec twos were supah enthu but the sec 3s were like damn bored.

After school. Doreen & Jiayi had their physics test so I kind of begged Tiff to pei me :D She really did pei me for like 35 mins? Love her so much man!

Then I ran up and down, down and up from the first floor to the third floor and from the third floor to the first floor. When I was done running, I felt like I was gonna puke my entire digestive system out man.

Then went to salvation army with my drama costume team. I almost fainted there because it was darn stuffy, I was dehydrated and I ran after eating my lunch. -.-

& I was so amazed when I stepped in salvation army. They sold all kinds of second-hand stuffs. Toys, books, VCDs, you name it, they have it.

( I bet jiayi very excited over this photo )

They even sell rubberbands with hair left in them -.- can you spell E W or what?!

Spent like 2 hours there and we only got a grey coat. Then one of my juniors was like suggesting us to go Mustafa. Went there, bought everything we needed.

& Mustafa shopping mall is damn cute lor. Before you go in, you have the let the security guards tie your bag's zippers with this string so that you can't shoplift.

Mustafa is sooo huge that me and Erin got lost in there -.-

Went back to school to unload all of our stuffs at like 6.30 p.m?! Craziness man.

Finally reached home at 7. Strawberryiceblended is the bomb man! :DD

My feet hurts.

Anyone wanna go shopping tomorrow?

A soul saved, a heart broken

I am so going to be fat.

Yes, fat.

I've just downed one kinder joy and a doughnut. Will you guys still love me when I turn into a fatass? I bet you all do :D ( Thickskinned moment )


Today was fun man. Heh, thursdays are always fun.


Had this talk about drugs during assembly. They shown us videos and I think they're kinda cool. Then ex-convicts went up to the stage and talked to us. Makes me treasure my youth more :o

English, then Maths. Maths was okay, time passed really fast.


Recess, free period. Then we had chinese. Ahaha chinese lesson was damn funny man, teacher kept on telling us cold jokes that weren't funny at all. All of us laughed because they were so retarded. Hah :D


Then we had one more period of English. Kok Chye & Min Yuen were late so Mrs L made them stand outside the classroom. Then KokChye went to stick his nose against the window and it made Doreen laughed for 15 minutes.


15 minutes, and she laughed 'till she cried. Ahahaha, Kok Chye very power eh?


Then school ended, me and doreen went to library to borrow books. Then when we were at fourth level sitting down and reading books right, I had to go look downstairs and I saw a bunch of guys looking up.


I didn't really thought anything would happen, so we were like staring at each other. Then suddenly, two of them came up and asked for my number. I was like, damn shocked. I kept on nudging Doreen and laughed like an idiot. -.- I gave my MSN anyway.


I think they're freaked out -.- bet they have never met such an idiot like Yours Truly.


I was still in the state of shocked for like 20 minutes, because nobody asked for my number before. ( Yeahyeah, laugh for all you want, I'm that unattractive )

Doreen was like super nice to accompany me to get my bus pass<3 heh, love her hen duo!


&&& On th bus back home, I saw Esther! Heh, didn't know she took 56 too! Had a nice chat with her until I alighted. Argh, bus trips are always so fast when you are engaged in fun stuffs.


Andandand, yesterday I talked to cheecheng on the phone until like 1.50 a.m? I was super hyper when I woke up today due to th lack of sleep -.- I bet she is realllyyyyy tired too.


Okay, I'm off to read my Clique Book! Ciao.

xoxo

I'm still waiting for your reply. It has been 2 hours.

Where are you when I needed you the most?

I am always there for you, whenever you need somebody to talk to.

I sacrificed my homework time just to catch up with you on your daily life.

I tried my best to be there for you when your life is haywire.

But now, when I am feeling so confused and alone, you left me alone.

You are never concerned over MY life.

Its always me being there for you and not the other way round.

I don't think things between us will work out if everything continues to be like this.

I'm a girl, I need more attention and concern from you.

Forget it.

Straight from the heart

Boombahjizagkojibu.

Today was such a longggggg day. All wednesdays are long. Juliana no like-y -.-

Had our Chemistry test today. Was so bloody stupid to memorise answers from the triple science test paper. In the end, its a total different paper. -.- I want to smack the teacher man. Waste like what, 512mb of my memory space in my brain.


But luckily I got study a little, so some of the questions were still okay :D


Had our soccer assesment test today. I think I did very badly because I wasn't in the mood of running and my period was hurting like crazy. Guys should get periods too -.-


Mr O. scolded some of the girls because we were slacking. Actually not really scolded, but talked to us quite nicely, in fact. He's nice :)


Recess. There was once when Miss A. walked past us, then all of us quickly pinned up our hair, then Mr O. was like grinning at us -.-


& Got a few people kept on telling me that I have small eyes. ( Yeah, all of them has big eyes, so I couldn't really say anything -.- )


My eyes considered v. big for single eyelids people okay! O-O


Physics, Bio people had free period :D We went to the third floor to slack and we were super noisy. Then at 1.50 p.m, the bunch of some people came and told me that I have small eyes again. -.-


Higher chi. lesson was okay. Had to do zuowen. Hsing Man & WeiShan were damn funny, making us laugh our asses out.


Then I escorted Doreen to her choir room :DDDDDDDDD


Went home, and ate Kinder Joy. Heh, its damn nice. & I got this seahorse toy that looks like Jiayi. Lmaoooooo.


& guess what what what.





Nothing.




Okay lah, guess!



I got sorethroat -.-

Argh, its so horrible. I still got one more kinder joy in my fridge! ):

Time to start popping strepsils and drink loads of water :D Imma gonna be healthy sooooooon.


Okay, I bet you guys can sense that I feel like bloggin' today. Heh :D


xoxo

Letting all the colours fade from my lovely delusions

( Click to enlarge the pictures :D )

Hola people.

I got back some of my ' blogging ' feel so here I am, blogging for y'all :D

Today was alright, very boring. I almost fell asleep in biology class, and Mrs C. was in like in an extremely foul mood today. Many people got scolded by her for small things.

English was good. But it was raining, with thunder. Surprisingly I didn't scream! Maybe because I was too distracted by Doreen. :D

Maths was, as usual, fine.

Chinese. Teacher was in a superbadmood too. & I didn't hand up my zuowen so I'm gonna do it laterrrrrrrr. (:

Had lunch with Doreen & Hsing Man. Scored loads of gossip points. Went home after that and took many hours of nap. Feeling quite awake now :D

Btw, anyone wanna hit the gym in Bishan with me? Text me :D

&&& Can any kind soul teach me rollerblading? Thanksssssssss :D

TAGS REPLIES

Yuwen : Yepps, I hope that my grandpapa will be fine too :D Thanks!

Sherilyn : Hey!! I see sherilyn too o_o

Tanzizhen : Ahaha maybe because drama is weird. Thats why we go to weird places. Cheer up 'kays! Love you too! :D

GG : Oh you mean that my last time zilians not nice?! Grrrr... Ahaha joking joking. Okay, I'll take more weird poses.

Jiayi/posa : If I'm vulgar, you're beyond hope :D

xoxo

edited :

( Children below 18, do not read this without parent's guidance )

I'm current fucking pissed off by this biatch. Just don't get what the fucking hell is her problem. Screw her man. Never seen anyone with such serious attitude problem. Fuck you. _l_ What a self centered WHORE. So fucking cheap manzx.

( I told you to not read -.- heh, never heed my advice )

( And please, kaypoh people, don't ask me who I am referring to, because I won't say. If you thik I'm referring to you, then you lo, I can't change the way you think. )

[ Fed-up moment, sorry for all the mean stuff. Happy post tomorrow, hopefully :D & I'm just posting this so that I can remind myself to not get too close with that person. ]

Three little words

Hey peeeeeeeeeeeeeople. :D

I am soooo tired. I slept at 3 a.m yesterday and Kimberly.K was so nice. She talked to me for like super long and she helped me to print my bio report! :DD


Well, I've flunked both my A Maths and E Maths test. -.- I got like 5 for my A Maths, which is upon 25. I have to buck up man!

Went to visit Ruhui at Thomson Medical Centre after school. Waited for like an hour or so because she was in the midst of an operation.


Doreen, me, Jiayi, Wei Shan and Yupin were like camwhoring in her bathroom. Damn funny. We made alottttttttt of noise. But Ruhui was happy because we bought flowers and attached a sweet note for her! :D

Okay, my posts are getting shorter and shorter because my life is boring and I lost the blogging ' feel '. SOS.

& My father just blasted at me for no reason. Whatthefuck?!

Ohohoh, I kept on saying the f word today and Jiayi said I'm vulgur -.-

I'll post the pictures that we took tomorrow I guess. I'm off to do my homework!

P.S : I'm still trying to survive with the short fringe that I've got. It kept on poking me in the eye ):

You know you love me ♥

Porcelain Rose

I'm back, from visiting my grandpapa in the hospital.

He is still strong :) but I think they found something in his liver. So his eyes have this yellow tint.

Some of my cousins and my aunt went there.

Catched up with them, and played with my cousins. They are damn cute :D

Short post today.

Omg, tomorrow school is reopening. Ehmygosh. Whatanass. I haven't even take a glance at my homework.

Gosh.

Hearts that shine with moonlight bliss

Hey yoooooooooo.

Gosh, its like 2 more days before we have to head back to school and become all stressed up again! Not that we are not stressed now, though.

Anyway, I met up with Yuwen, HuiMin, Lynn and some other people from DaiYangTian's Fanclub today to pay for my club tee! Gosh, I'm sooo excited.

As usual, laughed, joked, fooled around. It was super fun! I've laughed, fuckloads. ( Oops, vulgar moment. I think you'll hafta get used to it )

& From what they told me, you can actually see my blog if you search ' DaiYangTian ' on google. Ah-mazing x 10000!

I'm officially bored, and I ran out of things to blog about.

Oh yeah, I'm going to visit Grandpapa in the hospital tomorrow. I hope everything is fine. God bless.

Andandand, I'm in love with branded bags. Gosh. I'm so gonna save and buy a Guess bag! With my own money FYI, incase you think I'm some spoilt brat. Yays, can't wait.

Okay I'm gonna go and find something to entertain myself.

Ciao.

xoxo ♥

Sunshine of golden hues, a chasm of the purest light

( The big drop of thingy near my eyes are actually water on the mirror, not my tear FYI )

Bahlalalalala.

I'm so friggin' tired.

Woke up at like 9 a.m because I had drama today. Kind of took my own sweet time preparing :/

Rushed to school, was so darn afraid that I was gonna be late, so I called Bhavna and she was like saying our trainer haven't even reached.

Saw Tessa outside th school gate and she took a cab because she was so afraid that she would be late. Ahaha both of us are damn crazy man.

Drama was okay. Slacking for most of the time, but I did came up with a list of costumes we needed to get.

Went for lunch break @ 12.30? Then me, Shing Pheng [ My most beloved senior ] & Erin were like running away from _________. Darn tiring okay!

&&& I saw Honeydew! He just finished playing basketball I think.

Went to Little India after that with Miss W, ShingPheng, Erin, two of my juniors, Leah and Jacqueline. I am beginning to like one of my junior, whose name is SiWei I think.

I am soooo bad at remembering names.

Little India was full of ______ & massaging palours. So scary. One indian guy was like asking Shing Pheng if she wanna trims her eyebrows. She was soooo freaked out. Me, of course, was laughing like crazy.

Didn't managed to get anything for the character I'm in charge of. Sad man!

Went for dinner with Shing Pheng and Erin @ the cafe in Bishan Library. Heh, we got sick of the food in J8.

I swear, Shing Pheng is the best senior I've ever had. I could talk to her about almost anything! Basically we were like gossiping and stuff. Ahaha, super fun man! ( Yeah yeah, I'm bitchy -.- and so are you (: )

Had spaghetti. It was nice, but the service there was bad man. They didn't even have change for us so all of us were like digging into our wallets for exact change.

& The stupid bunch of people beside us were like yakking like as if there were no tomorrow. Andandand the stupid woman among the stupid bunch of people didn't turn her phone silent mode so it rang super loudly for like 3 times. She didn't even bother. Stupid ass, disturb benxiaojie's meal.

Oh, and me and Shing Pheng are currently crazy over this :

♥ xoxo

Listen carefully, open your heart, for my whispers in the night

( My current wallpaper for my phone now. Click to enlarge. Thank-kew )

Before I post ...

I've received a bad news from my father.

My grandfather was feeling unwell for the previous few weeks, then he went to the Doctor's, and I think they found something bad in his blood.

I am so god-damn worried now. I hope God will bless him.

& Today is like the 1 year anniversary death of my uncle.

I'm kind of really sad now. But today was kind of fine.

Was supposed to chck out phones with my parents, but there wasn't enough time as I'm meeting a bunch of retards in like 10 mins.

Went to watch Paul Blart : Mall Cop with ( see Jiayi's blog for who went, but you can't see it, 'cause its private -.- ).

Throughout the entire movie, the guys threw popcorn at me and Jiayi. & They are super vulgar. I think we're like the noisiest bunch of people there.


The movie was nice. I'll rate it 7.5/10. Reallyyyyy funny.


Then got into some trouble. I'm so not going to post it here. But it was like, super unlucky okay.


Went home after that.


Guess what.

My father is considering to get Samsung Pixon for me! All thanks to mummy!

I am so gonna finish reading my Twilight and buy New Moon.

I need to do my homework.

I need to do my homework now.

I need to do my stupid homework now.

I need to do my bloody stupid homework now.

I need to do my friggin' stupid bloody homework now.

But I ain't gonna do it. Heh.

xoxo

And so I tell myself, never again will I cry

Bingbangbomb. You're dead.

Lmao, can you sense that I'm bored. I bet you do do do do do. :D

I'm thinking of changing my blogsong. Hmmm, any suggestions, my fellow blogreaders?

Today was fine, really normal. The first day in weeks when I managed to sleep 'till 2 p.m in the afternoon :D

Tomorrow - I guess I will be buying phones with mah parents and then out for a movie with idk-who-because-everything-is-so-not-confirmed-due-to-a-person-making-me-wait-for-four-hours-so-far-and-haven't-even-replied-me. D:<

Mummy's gonna change phone too! Hooray.

But Samsung Pixon is like still kind of expensive and I am not sure if my father's willing to buy it for Yours Truly. I'm so gonna get the pink one.

If you google ' Pink Samsung Pixon ' , you'll see that the pink isn't nice at all. But I swear that the pink looks so chio in real life.

Spent the entire afternoon chatting with Jiayi, who vandalised my MSN with hell-loads of things. Some of them were quite funny so I didn't really mind.

Oh andandand, today my brother went to the Doctor's because he got the cold virus and high fever. ( Not from me okay ) & when he came home, he passed me a small plastic bag which contained two of my neoprints.

Guess what.

I left it there on my last trip to the doctor's, which was like weeks ago! He told me that the nurse saw them and kept them for me! Super amazing. The nurse even remembered me. :DDDD

Okay, I'm bored. Off to rot.

xoxo

Why does it have to hurt inside? Why do I have to cry?

The day is early, so I shall post about the night before.

Horrible night, again. It totally ruined my good mood. BUT, this time, Juliana didn't cry :D


I've became stronger :)


I kept on trying to keep myself occupied so that I won't have so much time to think about something.

Heck, I even arranged all my clothes according to types, length, colours.


I even arranged all my hangers according to colours, sizes and types. -.-


Then as I was in bed, I missed Granny suddenly. Its like I really wish I was young and she'll hug me like she used to. ( No, she is still alive and kicking -.- )


This morning was horrible too. I've woke up 15 times from 8 a.m to 2 p.m to check my inbox. Sadly, there was nothing there that I had expected for.

I'll post again later if I am feeling better (:

PS : I've feel so much better because I found a $10 note in my bag suddenly. I think I stashed it there last time. Heh.

Sigh, but my mood is still kind of rocky. I am contridicting myself. -.-

x,
Juliana

Sealed, with an everlasting kiss

Whoooosh!

Ben xiao jie feels so much better and I really thank those people who asked me if I'm alright. It helped, alot.

Went out with Doreen, Jiayi & Tiffany today. Awesome day. We met at 11.30 a.m, suggested by Doreen because she felt that someone will be late.

Guess what?

Jiayi and her were late-.- for like 20 minutes. During the 20 minutes, me and Tiffany were like thinking of many plans to trick them. But we didn't carry out anything in the end ):

Then we went to ____________ & Far East Plaza. Walked around but didn't really saw anything we like because we were really bored of that place.

Me and Tiffany wore heels today and both of us were whining because our feets were reallyyyyy tired and turning as red as monkey asses.

Therefore, all of us decided to go catch a movie. Decided for a long time. I wanted to watch ' Marley & Me ' while the rest of them wanted to watch ' Race to Witch Mountain '. I thought for like a superrrrrrr long time before giving in.

Ain't I nice? ( Doreen, Jiayi, Tiffany : Stop rolling your eyes -.- I can see it okay)

&&& We saw Min Yi with ___________. Heh, Doreen got really hyper after that.

The movie was okay. I'll rate is 7/10. The ending was sad, and Jiayi cried. But sitting beside Tiffany is kind of impossible to cry. I laughed so hard and I think everybody thought I was crazy.

Well, after the movie, me, Doreen and Jiayi decided to go back to Far East to continue shopping while Tiffany went to meet her cousins.

Jiayi went to her cousin's house after a while, then me and Doreen stayed in Far East.

Doreen bought a skirt + dress while ben xiao jie bought a dress too! Ohmahgod, I feel really sinful this month, as in like I've already bought 3 dresses -.- Wallet got a huge huge hole manzxz.

Then me and Doreen played this reallyyy stupid game and I got punched by her 3 times while I only managed to punch her one time. I must be careful :D

A realllyyy great day today. Super awesome to be specfic. I love mah girls!

Movies on my ' To-Watch List ' :

1. Hotel for dogs ( It has Emma Roberts in it, I must catch it! )

2. Confessions of a Shopaholic

3. 17 again ( Zac effron, can you spell C-U-T-E? Hah :D )

Well, ask me out if you wanna catch any of this please!

xoxo,

Juliana

You can't give me the security I need.

& You've hurt me far too many times.

I just can't feel secure and loved around you.

You treat me like as if I don't mean anything to you.

You threaten to stop talking to me because of the slightest thing.

Just why? Does it pleasures you so much to hurt me?

Regrets and sorrows, locked up in my heart

Sigh, I've been posting sad posts for these few days. I bet you guys can't stand it anymore.

A piece of bad news for you, today's post is gonna be real horrible.

Today is my brother's birthday, and it was suppose to be happy, but my entire day today was screwed up.

The morning was alright. Until evening.

I've just lost a good friend ( No, he/she did not die ), and I seriously broke down when I was on th phone with Jiayibestie. My tears were like drip drip drip drip. Even I was shocked okay. I didn't cried that ever since last year.

Yeah, so I was super emotional on the phone, and I think Jiayi is freaked out by me. I didn't say anything, I just sniffed and cried. Doreen joined in the call and we began crapping so here I am, feeling much better.


Well, I feel really stupid today. Before I called Jiayi I was thinking of many ways to _______. No, I am not doing this for attention, you durian head. Yes, I am fucking stupid right. My life is precious, my future is bright. No point ending it.


I almost blacked out when I was on the phone with Jiayi. I don't know why too. I am not asking for attention okay, stupid.


I'm experiencing all kinds of emotions now. My eyes are just so worn out these few days. Time for them to take a break :D


I hope I can promise y'all a happy post tomorrow.

xoxo,
Juliana

( Blogging makes me feel so much better )

EDITED : Heh, I'm feeling really happy now and I can't sleep! Okay actually my eyes are like, darn tired. Can't wait to meet my girls tomorrow! <3

When they give you advice, take it

Well, please skip this post. I'm posting this post in case Jiayi/ Mutant grape wanna read. & to remind myself to not make the same mistake

Last night was a mess.


& I really have to thank Jiayi for helping me to talk out things with him. She woke up in the middle of the night just to help us clear things up.



I didn't sleep well, because I cried for two bloody hours. I really felt as if I'm gonna cry my eyeballs out and die. I have never felt so horrible for months. Jiayi called me and I can't even talk because I was like catching my breath and crying super hard. Friggin' horrible.


& Guess what, my eyes are swollen today, which means that IT BECAME SMALLER. Ohmahgod!!!


I woke up at 9 a.m today, because I couldn't sleep and I felt that I needed to settle things with him.

I feel really confused now. I feel like switching off my phone for the entire day and just go MIA. I need time to think about everything.


& Today is actually my brother's 12th birthday. Who would have knew the night before it turns out so crazy.

I hope the shopping trip on tues can cheer me up. I think I'll have a long talk with Jiayi (:

My post is messed up, because I'm feeling messed up. Lmao -.-

& I really regret not taking Mutant Grape's advice. I knew that fire was dangerous, but I was stubborn and continued to play with it. Now I have wounds all over and I can't blame anyone for it. ( Not real fire lah! Its just an example -.- )

Okay, I'll post later, hopefully with peekchars!

xoxo,
Juliana

A twist in fate makes life worthwhile

Sorry about the previous post. Was being a drama queen.

& Thank you mutant grape, too, for helping me ith my troubles. I owe you many bowls of beef noodles :D


Morning got destoryed by an ostrich. I slept at 4 last night, and I'm forced to wake up at 10 ++ a.m today. Whattheheck.

& Mummy was like trying to have a serious talk with me today afternoon. My father saw me crying yesterday and he thought I quarrelled with my boyfriend so he went to tell my mum -.-

Then my mum was like super serious and I was trying to control my laughter. Lmaooo!

But I feel better now (:

Well, something that cheered me up was shopping. I bought like two dresses, but they'll take months to arrive. Boohoo ):

Read Twilight & watched the movie ' Bratz '. The movie was so predictable and boring. Yawn.


I'm looking forward to Tuesday to go shopping with my girls :D Its gonna be awesome!


xoxo,
Juliana

Can you tell me if you're joking? I can't sense it.

My heart is bleeding

( Skip this post. You won't understand a single thing )

I'm speechless.

I don't know what are the tears for. I need a talk with Jiayi.

...

Why am I even crying. Its so pointless.

I'll delete this post in a few hours time. I just need some place to vent my emotions.

EDITED :

Yeah, I'm feeling much much much better now :D

Well, what happened just now ... There was him, her and loads of tears.

I just wish sometimes, he can be more sensitive and try to understand my feelings.

And ostrich, I swear all this has nothing to do with my father.

Jiayi, thanks for talking it over with me. I heart you.

x,
Juliana

Written, with the ink of my blood

Whoooo, I am so satisfied today.

Went for drama to finish up everything today. 4 hours of non-stop sewing, trust me, it ain't fun.

I feel like as if I'm a sewing machine myself -.- and I pricked myself n times. ( People who are sadistic should be glad to hear this :D )

Glad that our drama trainer was satisfied with everything. Heh :D Juliana is very happy now.

Drama ended. Went for lunch at MosBurger with Erin.

Went home after that. My MSN was kept on dying on me. ( Sorry to those people who had to bear with me logging in and out non-stop ). Was really fed-up and worried that my computer will die soon.

& Some mutant grape was like saying he is going to die soon. Lmao. If he dies then I'll have nobody to bully. ( Everybody say awwwwww ) ( PS : Mutant grape is not ostrich lah )

Took a 3 hours nap. Heh. Woke up when somebody called. Seriously, stop calling me when I'm in the midst of sleeping. My voice is damn deep and I blab nonsense. Example :

X : " Eh Ju, what you doing now? "
Me : " X = a+b+ac "
X : " What talking you? "
Me : " I want to go Orchard "
X : " Then go lah "
Me : " Miss Kang, I never bring my homework "
X : " Oi, wake up leh! "
Me : " Eh, how many twos do you have for Big 2.5 ? "
X : " Bye bye "

See what I mean -.-

Okay, I'm off to play Viwawa. Anybody that sees this, please do join me (:

x,
Juliana ♥

Echoes of a heartbeat

( I'm like rushing this post because some honeydew wants to read my post )

Today was black friday. Gosh, its my first time being unlucky on a Black Friday.

Had drama meeting after assembly, and got kind of scolded. But I guess we deserved it. And as me, Sun Xin, Tessa & Rachel ( Sec 4 ) are walking back to class, we got caught by Miss A.


Yeah, she was like saying something about only catching girls when the new term starts. & She'll be photocopying 100 copies of the attire agreement.


Had Maths, then Biology. Mrs C didn't come, so Mr Chan took over us. He talked to his group of people while I simply went to disturb many people. Heh, the person who has a line on his hand is an idiot.


Had chemistry after recess. As usual, the class was damn noisy. Sigh, I guess I'm not gonna do well for Chemistry. Tiffany was soooo irritating, heh.

& I went around borrowing worksheets from the guys and vandalised on them. Aren't I awesome? :D


Chapel. Darrel sat in front of me and I kept on wanting to see his bag. He was kind of irritated and he simply passed his whole bag for me to explore. Lmaoooo, he is darn funny man.

And I managed to trick many people into believing that I take Physics, until Doreen spoilt the joke. -.-


Had drama afterschool, did loads of sewing and my mood was really fucked up because I was like in charge today and my juniors were noisy and I had to shout many times.

Sigh, went home with Erin. & I have to go to school tomorrow to continue sewing. Whathahell.

***

& I'm so pissed off over this person. She's getting on my last nerve.

& You continued doing something that I wasn't happy with and you continued doing that despite KNOWING that I'm unhappy. If you can do this, I can do that to him too. Why should I care about your feelings so much?

Do you actually understand that I'm trying very hard to not hurt your feelings, but you don't seem to care about mine.

Wait for it, trust me.

( I'm sorry people, for acting like a biatch. Its just that some people don't get it. I promise happy posts soon! )

xoxo,
Juliana

Its funny how she bleeds and he never sees it

Today was simply AH-MAZING.

I love Thursdays on even weeks. FYI, we have two different time-tables, one for odd weeks and another one for even weeks.

English - Linda & Bryan sat in front of me and Doreen. I swear we were damn crappy. All of us were laughing like some hyenas-went-bonkers.

Maths - Okay, continued to disturb Doreen. Heh, I paid 3/4 of my attention when the teacher was teaching! Thats like, so much improvement from last time.

Recess - Didn't eat anything because all of us were like trying to finish up our Cheena papers. Tiffany kept on contridicting me. Gosh. But I still love her >:)

Then Mr Chan, ( Our 21 years old chem teacher ) came to our table and as usual, we disturbed him. Then he was like asking " Eh, you all know where is room 18? " and we were like bloody shocked because thats the room for our cheenah lesson.


& He laughed like crazy when he heard that me, Doreen, Jiayi & Hsing Man take Higher Chinese -.-

So basically, I laughed throughout the entire day :D

Reached home, took a long long nap and now I'm awake. Imma gonna continue watching Ouran High School Host Club.

Viwawa anyone? & Please recommend me some nice animes with love stories inside. I'm finishing Ouran!

xoxo,
Juliana

Lost in confusion and total self bliss

Today was oh-kay. But the morning was horrible.

Okay, the following will be a long complain & full of vulgarities, skip and scroll down if you are not interested (:

Mr W.Ho made 3 Peace remained standing after the national anthem, and the reason was because we settled slowly or something. I have to say that seriously, its not our class thats in the wrong and he scolded the wrong class. He was like saying its our final warning ( when we didn't even get any warnings before ) or else he'd deal with us after school.


So, we remained standing after the national anthem. & You should have seen our form teacher, CKN's face. It was like so ... screwed ( sorry, thats the only word I can find in from my vocab now )

It was really ... fucking humiliating okay. Standing when we didn't even do anything wrong and the whole school was staring at my class.

& When all of us were leaving the hall, she called me to stay back because she wanted to talk to me. Yeah, guess what she said to me. She told me that she saw me talking non-stop to Linda throughout the entire assembly when the only thing I did was to turn around and to look at her. FUCKER.


Yeah, guess what. During SS period, she scolded us like crazy. I have never ever seen a teacher like her, who totally abandons her class when they're in trouble. Its like she just simply pushed everything to us, without standing up for us even though she knew we were not in the wrong.

I tell you, I miss my old form teachers, Mrs Razali and Miss Lee. I'm sure if its two Joy'08 that got into trouble that they don't deserve, they will stand up for us.

Screw CKN okay?


****



Phew, finally, an end to my non-stop complaining. Well, the rest of the day was fine, nothing much happened, I'm like still confused in A maths, but, nvm (:

Thinking about the list of homework I have to complete tonight makes me wanna puke. Argh.

x,
Juliana

Hide the Earth's old and weary cry away

Ohmahgod, my favourite word today is ' Karma '.

Tiffany should know why :D

Helped Cheecheng with her zuowen. Lmaoo, I'm like really stressed now -.- I'll like kill myself or something if she gets low marks.

Everything was fine until Maths, when I was like trying to use the phone secretly. Then, Miss K saw it -.-

Miss K : " Juliana, do you have anything that I need to take away from you? "
Me : " Errr... " * Quickly pretends to do work *
Miss K : * Starts shouting * " How many times must I tell you all to not treat me like AS IF I AM BLIND?! "

But luckily, she only made me stay back to sweep the classroom, which was like, damn filthy.

Afterschool, went to sit with Jiayi, Bhavna, Tiff, Doreen & Mr Chan. He was supposed to teach us Chem, but slowpokes like Jiayi & Bhavna were doing their physics so he couldn't teach :B


Then me, Tiff and Jiayi were like talking to Mr Chan and he kan bian me can. I told him I wanna be doctor and he looked at his watch and said : " Okay, time to wake up! " -.-


After that Tiff, Doreen and Jiayi had to go for their test. Me and Keanna sat outside at the tables and chatted while waiting for them. Cheryl, Eunice & Kim joined us :D

Went to LJS with Tiff, and we talked for like an hour or so. & I had this splitting headache that panadol can't cure -.- So stupid.

Went home after that and spend the whole evening Viwawa-ing with Jiayi, Doreen & Ostrich. Doreen left after a while so me, Jiayi & Ostrich continued playing. It was so damn funny man. But I was bored after many rounds of tai-dee -.-

Okay, Imma gonna watch Ouran High School.


Anyone has any nice animes to reccomend me?

x,
Juliana ♥

I'll forget the long sad nights

Normal day, again.

Sigh, I bet you guys are getting bored reading my blog when nothing interesting happens to me. Like for example, going up the moon and stuffs.

& Today, I almost bump into the wall/pillar for like 4 times?! I seriously need to be more careful. -.- or else I would need more than just plasters.

SS lesson was horrible. Mdm C. was having her usual moodswings and she scolded me for talking in assembly. Yeah, whatever, seriously -.- I'm starting to hate her like everyone else. LBR. ( Loser beyond repair )

Doreen went home before assembly. Sigh, without that girl, lessons are just sooooo boring. ( I bet she is smiling like an idiot as she is reading this. ) Hope she'll get well soon. So many people are falling sick.


Oh, and the weather today for the afternoon and now is amazing. Its cold and taking a nap in this weather is the best darn thing ever man! ( I've just taken a 3 hours nap, and I'm feeling bloody hell energetic! )

Andand, my phone bill for the previous month shot up like crazy because I kept on texting somebody. Okayokay, an ostrich.

&& before I forget about it, I must post this conversation between me, Jiayi and Tiffany :

Jiayi : " I am engaged to Doreen already leh!
"
Juliana : " So? I'm faster than you. I am
already married to her! Hah :D "
Jiayi : " So? I'm part of her family already.
"
Tiffany : " I know, you are their maid right!
"

Okay, it doesn't seem funny in words. But I was so cracked up by Tiff.

Okay, off to play viwawa. I have no life, thank you :D

x,
J ♥

The moon winked, and the sun went dry

Whooosh.

Lemme blog about yesterday before I forget about it :D

YESTERDAY

Started off with an extremely bad morning.

Some ostrich called me at 9 a.m for fun -.- & I'm only supposed to wake up at 12 p.m && I slept at 4 a.m the previous night.

He called, talked for a while and I had no idea what we talked about because I was half asleep while talking to him.

He called again, at 10 a.m. Craziness. & He even asked Doreen to call me to wake me up. -.-

I woke up at 12, with a splitting headache and extremely bad mood.

But hold up, the rest of the day ain't that bad (:

Met up with many people at 3.30 p.m for a charity event that Daiyangtian & LaiYiLing attended. As usual, chatted and laughed and had loads of fun.

& All of us donated $2 under DaiYangTian's Singapore Fanclub's name! Aren't we awesome! :D

5.30 p.m, the event started. This event was a little quiet and the atmosphere was really bad at the start. Thee deejay cracked jokes that weren't funny at all.

Luckily, there were games and stuff so all of us warmed up in the end.

I've made a few new friends & I'm no longer the youngest in the fan club. Awwwww ):

Cheered, screamed and took photos. I'm not gonna post up photos of DYT because its realllyyy blur.

TODAY

Morning got destroyed by an ostrich again.

Spent the entire afternoon gaming.

I've finally downloaded the new version of MSN. I know I know, I am a slowpoke. Heh.

I'm going out for dinner soon.

I'm blogging in random points. Hah.

Okay, time to reply tags!

x,
J ♥

She is beautiful - Like a portrait, framed in gold

Whoooooosh.

Didn't blog yesterday, and I guess Jiayi is the only one that missed me ): Awww so sad.

YESTERDAY

Had this super funny DISC profiling workshop and the coach was darn hilarious. I actually thought that it will be super boring but in the end, its like darn funny. I felt like I've laughed for the entire 3 hours.

Cool.

& I found out that I'm have a ' S ' personality.

Here are the characteristics :
1. Stable & Steady
2. Super-nice ( Yes, thats me )
3. Shy ( Tiffany and Doreen objected when the coach said this -.- )
4. Secure ( Not really )
5. Status Quo ( True, very true )
6. Sympathetic ( Bingo! )
7. Enjoys simple pleasures, etc, watching the sunset. ( THATS SO ME :D )
8. Good listener, compassionate
9. Patient, not easily upset
10. Understanding, friendly
11. Predictable
12. Posessive ( Very true )
13. Has several close friends ( Too bad, I'm a fan girl, I have many groups of friends! :D )
14. Reluctant leader, efficient
15. Systematic and organized


Weaknesses :
1. Resist change
2. Holds grudges ( Very true )
3. Spectator
4. Too laid back
5. Indecisive ( I cannot make up my mind so people hate shopping with me -.- )
6. Not goal orientated
7. Difficulty establishing goals
8. Condones mistakes


And yesterday, I freakin' played catching with 3 people whom consisted of people who wanna kick and whack me -.- I had to run like some crazy woman. Very tiring okay!

TODAY

I'm trying to recall what has happened today.

Can't really remember anything except for drama today, which was not the typical drama session we had.

We did sewing. Yes, sewing. Ben xiao jie don't know never sew for how many centuries already :/

I freakin' stared at the needle and thread and poked through many pieces of clothes for 3 hours. Then I was like complaining to Miss W. that I will never be a housewife in the future.

& I played Viwawa with my girls just now. Damn funny man. At least we all took turns to win the game :D

I'm watching Ouran High School Host Club now. FYI, its an anime.

Can't wait for the Daiyangtian's activity tomorrow!

Ciao, I'll update tomorrow with cute pictures of my darling

x,
J♥

Stars, Hopes and Cascading Dreams

I'm munching on : Oreos

The weather now is : Fucking humid :/

My mood now : Hella complicated.

Normal day, again. Sigh, I feel like my youth is gonna be gone soon before I'd even notice.

Had E Maths test. I left many 3 marks questions blank. Its horrible, plain horrible. Fingers crossed that I will at least pass it :/

Did 2.4km running for PE. Walked for a long time with Cheryl because both of us were like, too tired to run. Heh, I'm not going to tell you my timing. ( Honeydew : You should know my timing! )

I swear today's chinese lesson rocks man. Teacher was uber funny and he shared with us his experiences during JC and uni. He has totally changed my mind and I'm aiming to get into a JC now! :DD

Oh, and I bloody hell got kicked by an ostrich before English class started. Its itching now and I don't know why.
! @ # $ ):

I wish Jiayi bestie will get well soon. School's so un-retarded without her!

Yum, oreos are yummy. I wanna eat honey stars.

Ciao, I'm off to flood my brain with Danson's voice.

x,
Juliana ♥
You simply have no idea how it feels when you ask me ask me about her.

I've lived so long on hopes and dreams

Today was a pretty normal day.

Mrs C's mood was really good during Bio. She was like talking to us about this trip for Bio students EOY. I want to go, but its like 2.5k. :/

Oh, and she gave us sweets. I bet her mood today is really awesome.


Did an oral book review presentation for English. Well, I think its okay, but its kind of scary when I'm up there :o Glad everything's over :DD

Had Chinese test. Argh it's soo effing hard. I have a feeling I might fail.


Speaking of failing, I might fail my E Maths test tomorrow because stupid me left my maths files inside my locker. The boos of having a locker!

And Chem teacher wanted to see me and Jiayi after school because we sort of scored the lowest for Chem. It was so funny when Miss A walked past our classroom and all the girls hide.

Okay, I'm off to play viwawa then study for maths. Wish me luck!!

x,
Juliana &Hearts;

We share a secret no one knows

Today I seemed to got off from the wrong side of my bed, since most of the things today went haywire.

First thing in the morning, I overslept. -.-

Then during Geography lesson, teacher was calling out all the names of people who were present, and Benedict fucking didn't take me and Dylan's attendance. Screw him!

Recess. Was frantically texting 3 people at the same time to resolve some issue. I'm glad things are kind of settled by SS period.

Bio was okay though. I got back my test, and I got like 13/20. Considering that I failed my previous test, this mark is like, really good already okay.


We had a new Chemistry relief teacher. He can't even control the class. Yeah, so we were like really noisy. But he's nice enough to explain some atom thing to me despite me asking stupid questions.


I'm having an oral presentation tomorrow for English. I don't know what book I'm going to do a review on. SOS!


x,
J ♥

Sealed with a kiss

Jiayibestie is sick and I'm kind of 90% sure that she got the virus from me :/

She kept on boasting on how good her immune system is, until we shared drink on Friday, hah. My virus attacked her immune system.

Didn't update yesterday, because nothing much happened.

I'm munching on my Subway cookies as I blog now :D Everybody say YUM please! :P

I got my Danson album, calender and poster. Awesome. I'm like flooding my brain with his voice instead of maths :/

Anyway, I went to IKEA with mummy and sissybrother today. Didn't buy many things. Heh, had dinner there. Food's awesome but kind of expensive, considering the amount of food they serve.

Kind of quarrelled with mummy over some things. There were loads of shouting, screaming and crying. But I guess we're ohkay now (:

I'm off to play Viwawa. Speaking of it, my hand for Big 2.5 is like super bad these few days. Kept on losing money! Boo!

Ciao, babes.

You know you love me,
J ♥